hey yall...miss me?:P....not much 2 say but carrying on from wot i said last blog..i am...FINALLY :D.....meeting anna :D :D :D :D..............life is finally on my side hehe.....err...im not looking for another job coz im bk @ college :D......doing childcare hehe.... mi sis isnt speakign 2 ian (father..NOT dad!) and i got a counsellor now...shes nice..she helps me get over the pissedoffness of ian...that bout it really...ttys...

 

luv gem x

 

bleed,bleed,

to seep out all the blood,

to drain you of your liquid life.

 

bleed, bleed,

burn the life around your soul,

purify,

take controll.

 

bleed, bleed,

just to make me satisfied,

bleed because i want you to,

bleed so you can't stay alive.

 

bleed, bleed,

flow out this pain i give to you.

 

bleed bleed,

i see you bleeding,

yes,

i do.

 

bleed, bleed,

the pictures high upon the wall.

 

i hate you most because you're you,

so bleed till you're no more.

sorrw in the deepest tears,

does not comare,

to missing you, i fear,

that lying here,

trying to sleep,

my emptyless head,

your face cannot bear.

 

and thinking back,

with years to come,

of days gone by,

how shall i cope,

how should i die.

 

for in my sleep,

is only you,

and when i wake,

the saddend dew,

has moist my face,

and drowned my soul,

and you shall hold me,

no more,

so?..

sitting here,

waiting,

for what? i truly dont know,

missing you more than im feeling my own existance,

seeping out, within my skin,

just to hold you,

once.

 

whispers, within my bed,

sleepless missing you,

yearning to hear you utter my name,

in only breathless prayre.

 

kneeling, hoping,

crying out to simply know you,

you're all i'll ever need,

i know the meaning of complete

without a definition,

only knowing missing you,

 

where have you been so along?